by Pedro the Lion
I don't want to believe that all of the above is true
but I could be persuaded if you were to give me proof
why don't you come over Thursday. Maybe we can talk it through
as if some new information were possible to comprehend or introduce
after all you and I are nothing more than foregone conclusions
you were to busy steering the conversation toward the Lord
to hear the voice of the spirit saying “shut the fuck up”
you thought it must be the devil trying to make you go astray
besides it couldn’t have been the Lord because you don't believe he talks that way
too close to call yet
still so tightly wound around our foregone conclusions
Maybe I’m completely off base when I think that God possibly feels this way towards Christians who have this stereotypical idea of how God is and how he’s supposed to be. We are still talking about the same God who sent plagues and burned down
I understand that when Jesus came it changed a lot of things, but at the same time, Jesus did come hard against the Pharisees. I know there are modern day Pharisees amongst us. I wonder how much the Church has allowed the yeast of the Pharisees to mix in with their doctrine or every day beliefs. I know there are a lot of things that I thought were true or correct as a young zealot for the Lord that I have now come to almost despise. That’s growing up though. That’s learning and figuring things out for yourself.
The Bible says, that “God is no respecter of persons” why should we allow ourselves to believe everything that one pastor says. Doesn’t that seem a little crazy? Shit, I could be a pastor by now if I had followed through with my original plan. Wouldn’t that be scary to only listen to the words of a 24 year old whose only life experience would be college and seminary. When it comes to Biblical matters I do know my way around the Bible, but I also believe that the wisdom, knowledge and understanding that God has given me is only as much as he gives to every other 24 year old. Why not listen to many different points of views and opinions? We all walk a different road and have different insight to every situation. Why close our minds to only a few opinions?
Honestly, in the last few years, the majority of what I have learned about my faith has been from non-believers. These are people that I’ve met playing cards or throwing darts with at bars. I now truly understand why Jesus hung out with “sinners”. They have nothing to lose or hide. They’re not trying to impress you. They just want to be real and that’s something that the Church is struggling so hard to become these days. Not only that, it’s also the amount of grace that I’ve seen these people display that is amazing to me. Where does it come from? Why don’t I see this at church? It’s not that the church is completely void of this, but it’s on a whole new level.
At church, I almost feel like grace is given, but something is still being held back. Almost as if they’re saying, “It’s ok this time, but we’re keeping track of how many times you screw up.” This isn’t grace or forgiveness. This is condemnation. Jesus said there is no condemnation for those who believe in him. I don’t think that the majority of the church does this on purpose. I think this is the same way they are in their lives towards themselves and it just carries over into other relationships.
My conclusion is that God loves everyone and wants us all to receive his Grace and Mercy. Some of us just need to “shut the fuck up” every once in a while and receive it.