Friday, March 31, 2006

Turtle Power!

When I was a little boy my friends and I would play with our Ninja Turtle action figures and would even listen to the TMNT movie soundtrack while running around acting out the movie. Remember, I did say little boys. I'm talking, we were between the ages of 8 and 10, not 14 or 15. I will admit that when I hit about 13 I put the toys away for a few years as I was "discovering" myself.

When I turned 16 I was pretty comfortable with who I was and my love for the Green Machine was rekindled. My love for them still remains, but it's much different now. It's a mature love. I still purchase action figures, but I don't play with them. I even own the TMNT soundtrack, but I don't act out the movie anymore and I especially don't play the TMNT cartoon theme song and create YouTube Video's of myself dancing around like this guy or even like these kids.

I guess I shouldn't judge. I probably like the Ninja Turtles more than they do.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Unwritten Law of Poker #2

#2. Do not wear a WPT t-shirt that says "I'm all in." to a limit table at a casino.

I was playing in a limit card game out in Morongo last September when a kid who didn't look a day over 15 sat down at the table. This kid must've had a fake ID and I believe he bought in to the game with his allowance.

The greatest part was when I noticed his T-shirt said "I'm all in." I asked him if he knew that he was sitting at a limit table.

He nodded.

I smirked.

I referred to him as "all in" for the 30 minutes he sat there.

"All in, the action is on you."

It's too bad he couldn't make his signature move.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Unwritten Law of Poker #1

#1. Don't tell bad beat stories.

No one really cares about your bad beats. We all listen and nod while we try to walk away or try to change the subject, but we really don't give a rip.

Everyone has been on both sides of a straight hitting on the river.

Everyone has had their pocket aces busted by crap hands.

We've all been sucked out on.

So please, please don't tell me your fucking lame story every week about how joe amatuer got lucky and took all of your chips away. Unless, it involves a Royal Flush or losing atleast $100. I'll then either be excited about the Royalty showing up or show sympathy because you lost a bill.

Note to readers who don't play poker: Every poker player does this. Including me.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Rules of the Blog

I've noticed something about blogging. So if you're new to this gig. Listen up.

People like short posts that get to the point.

People are too busy to read long entries.

Including me. Oh yeah, people like stupid links that show them something that they would never see on their own.

Like this.

So don't post long entries like this or like this. No one likes them.

I love Blog.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

There is always an alternative.

I was sitting in a Bar this weekend with my Dad watching the LSU/Texas basketball game when on another screen George Bush's face popped up. I don't know what came over me, but it was the funniest thing because I just started pointing and laughing. It wasn't even a retarded looking picture. It looked more like this than this right here. It really has nothing to do with political stance. His face was so clueless and hillarious that it honestly cracked me up. My father laughed as well. He's even a registered republican. I'm a registered blogger.

I guess alot of politicians get a bad rap when it comes to pictures that the media takes of them. I know if I was getting my picture taken every where I went there would be some really ridiculous pictures of me. I'm not too photogenic.

Anyway, with all of this W. talk, I was thinking about an idea I had when I was a kid. They had some pretty radical Nerf toys out then and American Gladiators was in its prime on TV so my brother and I wanted to make our backyard into a gladiator ring using Nerf toys. Most of the time we would've used it for fun, but other times maybe we could've used the ring to resolve our differences. Nothing like taking a foam jousting stick upside your brothers head to get over the arguement about who's going to do the dishes.

"Johnny! Mom said YOU had to do the dishes."

"Mom doesn't know that I did the dishes when it was your turn last."

"You're a liar Johnny!"

"No! You're just lazy."

"To the Coliseum little brother."

"You're on Mother Fucker!"

I don't know why we never ended up doing that. Probably because we were in middle school and didn't have any money.

Wouldn't it be great though if the World Powers could handle their problems old Nerf Gladiator style. They could even televise it. The ratings would be through the roof. Plus, they would make a shit ton of money. They could do it in a real coliseum in DC as well. They're politicians, I'm sure they could get the funding to make it happen. It's too bad this won't ever happen though, I'd love to see Tony Blair beat down Dick Cheney with an automatic tennis ball gun. That would be fucking awesome.

Oh well, I guess they'll have to take care of their problems the old fashion way. Grenades over tennis balls. Swords over foam jousting sticks and high powered rockets over the good old fashion air nerf rocket.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Celebration, bitches.

I knew it was coming up, but I guess I got busy with all of the St. Patrick’s Day and March Madness festivities and forgot about it.

Last Thursday was my 1 year Blogger Anniversary, March 16th to be exact. This isn’t my first blog. It’s actually my third, but it’s my favorite. I put the most effort into this one. I also enjoy Blogger because I really don’t know anyone personally from this community other than a few friends that got with it and came over to this site.

It’s interesting to look back on a year and see all of the crazy stuff that went on. That’s one of the reasons why I blog. It is a journal, but not in the “pink lacey journal that my sister hides under her pillow and writes about all of the boys she has crushes on” kind of way. It’s more of a history book for me in that regard.

Well, 135 posts (as of March 16th, 2006 I’ve actually posted 4 times since then) in a year ain’t bad! Maybe this year I’ll go for 200!

Thanks to everyone who reads and comments. I appreciate your feedback. Thanks to everyone who reads and doesn’t comment. It’s like looking out into the darkness. I know you’re there (site meter) I just can’t see or hear you. It’s Ok to say something. I don’t bite. I especially want to thank everyone who reads, comments and writes in their own blog. It’s nice being in a little community of writers.

Here’s to another year!

Hold your horses...

I love ipods. What a great invention. I was in the car with someone today and they said it was their favorite invention. I could see how someone could say that, but I personally like plumbing and air conditioning better.

The only thing that kills me about Apple though, is how fast they put their products out. They put the ipod photo out and before you knew it they were releasing the video. I actually bought a 60g ipod photo in Sept. of last year. They released the video the next month. It pissed me off.

I was just reading though how Apple is going to possibly be launching or at least announcing the new wide screen video ipod on April 1st. That's insane. They just released the fucking Video ipods 7 months ago. Atleast wait a fucking year. My God, man.

I hope they wait a little while because my Dad actually just got the new 60g video ipod today and my girl friend just got the 30g video last week because her old ipod passed away. It would just piss me off for them to miss out on the newest version by a couple of weeks, but then again, that is the nature of the beast.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006



    A lens is one person's (lensmaster's) view on a topic he cares about. More specifically, a lens is a single web page filled with information and links that point to other web pages, to continually updated RSS feeds, or to relevant advertising. It's a place to start, not finish.

Has anyone heard about this yet? I was looking on Seth Godin's blog and this seems to be his creation. The jury is still out on this deal for me. I'm all about cutting edge internet technologies and ideas, but I don't want to get going on something if it's just going to fizzle out and more importantly, if it doesn't have a real value for me.

Seems pretty interesting though. I could see how this would work for some people who have alot going on or have alot of knowledge on an issue/topic/company/technology that they want to share on the web. I think for a good portion though, a blog is just fine.

What do you guys think?

Saturday, March 18, 2006


I was thinking that maybe Power Wheels could use these guys in their commercials. They might gain a whole new target market!

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Pre-game Warm Up

This place is my new Thursday night hang out. Plus, tomorrow is St. Patrick's Day and I decided to take the day off. I'm Irish. I think they should just give me the day off anyway. I'm going to get my pre-game warm up on over at The Monkey Barrel, in Gainesville, GA. My beautiful girlfriend works at a Salon in the square up there, so I hang at this place until she gets off.

#1 reason for going there:

$1.50 can of 16oz. PBR

That's out of control. I don't even like PBR that much, but for a buck fifty I can make it work.

#2 reason for going there:


My friend Jeff and I are going to try and take a stab at making the big bar bucks. I've never played trivia, believe it or not, but I'm pretty damn good at Trivial Pursuit. Wish us luck!

Tomorrow is the real deal though. Since, I took the day off I'm going to be meeting my Dad for lunch at our local Pub. From there, the sky is the limit!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Misconception a.k.a. "Get with the fucking now!"

I don't know who said it. Maybe it was Kevin. Actually, I think it was Kevin. He had a post sometime back talking about how when it comes up in conversation about having a blog people tend to be sheepish about it or some what embarrassed. If I recall correctly, he went on to say how basically it's awesome to have a blog and if you think it's weird, well then fuck you. Kevin's post in my own words.

Well, I totally agree.

Why the fuck should I feel strange about having a blog or having an online presence just because a good portion of society is behind on the times? It's not my fault that someone just got an e-mail address a year ago. I got an e-mail address in 1994. I've been online for about 12 years now and I've loved every fucking minute of it.

The internet is fucking awesome.

It's a growing and breathing community that keeps getting better every second. Yes, there are pros and cons, but there are pros and cons to everything.

My favorite is when people think it's weird that people become friends on the internet and then meet in real life. Well, I'm sorry to say, I'd rather meet someone from the internet that i've talked to on aim/a blog/ or e-mail opposed to meeting someone from a personal ad in the back of a newspaper. That shit is weird to me.

I guess people have just heard too many horror stories about child molesters and swingers.

I agree you have to be careful when communicating over the internet, but hell, you have to be careful talking to someone in a bar or even at a party. I'm not just talking about dating here either. I'd have to say that I do agree with Kevin. When you are in a blogging community it does become like family. I honestly would have no problem meeting up with any of the the people on my links list and having a beer. after reading their lives for the past year I think I have a good understanding of what kind of people they are.

With all of that said, here's something I came across on Shane's site today. I can really relate to it.

Here's his answer to when people ask this question:

"Why are you blogging?"

- Because it keeps me writing.
- Because I get instant feedback on that writing.
- Because it feels good to verbalize my thoughts, actions, and experiences.
- Because it's part of a dynamic global community, and therefore, I am also part of that community.
- Because it gives me a voice.
- Because I have complete control of my content.
- Because I love the internet.
- Because it reaches people; sometimes more than was ever intended or imagined.
- Because I like it. It satisfies something in me. It continues to drive me to write, explore, and learn.
- Because you can only leave comments so many times before you decide it's time to have your own forum.
- Because in the end, I'm just a nerd.

Edit - To see Shane's whole post to newbies about blogging: go here

I whole-heartedly agree with his answers. My thoughts on people who hate on the internet or blogging:I'm going to throw their BS back in their face and ask they why they don't have a blog.

Probably because they don't have anything to fucking say.

There is no return to innocence.

I think I was born in the wrong era. I wish I was born in the 30's or 40's. I wish I could've been around in Buddy Holly and Johnny Cash's heyday. I really miss those guys. I really miss simple life. I was never apart of that type of life, but I yearn for it.

I miss Diners and Sockhops. I miss picking up my girl for a date with my school jacket and tight rolled jeans on and her wearing a poodle dress and saddle shoes. I miss cruising to the makeout spot in my 50-something Chevy. I miss making out, just being making out and nothing below the belt or under the shirt.

I miss Mom cooking dinner everynight and Dad coming home from work at 5:30 to join us. I miss watching Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy with my family. I hated those shows. I miss my mom being at home. I miss my family being normal. I miss being the one in the family that was weird. I hate that I'm the most "together" now.

I wish that curse words still shocked me when I heard them. I wish that lightning would bolt through my body and that the hair would stand up on the back of my neck again, like the time when I heard Craig Alderson say "fag". I wish I didn't say words that make "fag" look like child's play.

I miss staying out until 11pm in my neighborhood when I was 12 during the summertime with all of my friends talking and dreaming about the future. Our future was ahead of us. It was exciting and terrifying all at the time and we couldn't wait for it.

I love my present life , but I miss the innocence of my past.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Box Office

How the hell did “Titanic” become the #1 grossing movie of all time at the box office?

I’m sure some of the internet dorks who read my blog have checked this site out, but for the rest of you, enjoy!

It’s pretty interesting to see what’s in the top 100. What’s my personal favorite?


The fact that the worst installment of the Star Wars Saga is #4 on the list and it’s the highest ranked Star Wars flick is sad. It’s understandable though. It’s all based on the market. It was the first Star Wars movie in almost 20 years. Anticipation was high. I think after Episode I the crowds started slumping because they knew the newest trilogy wasn’t going to be as good as the first.

Well, if you call Attack of the Clones at #25 raking in $648,200,000 and Revenge of the Sith at #12 bringing home $848,462,555 slumping.

A bad day for George Lucas would be a fantasy dream land for the majority of Hollywood though. Good for you George. Now don’t fuck up Indiana Jones 4!

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Sister Louisa

Sister Louisa is the alter-ego of a bar tender at one of the bars I hang out at here in Atlanta.

Love it or hate it. After you read this guys bio you have to give respect where respect is due.

Check out his site.

Friday, March 10, 2006

Amen brother!

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"Shout at the devil..."

I think a good portion of you who read my blog already know who Chuck Klosterman is. If you don’t know who he is, you should get acquainted with him and his writings. He is an editor for Spin Magazine and he contributes to a couple other major publications. Chuck has also written three books:

Fargo Rock City

Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs

Killing Yourself to Live

I first stumbled upon Chuck a little over a year ago. I randomly came across Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs at Barnes and Noble and quickly was addicted. The book was hilarious because he has a whole chapter about the MTV reality show The Real World and how it’s affected our lives through causing us to stereo-type people based on characters from that show. Now, whether that is completely true for you, that’s your decision. I can see where he’s coming from and regardless of whether or not it’s correct, the idea of it is so fucking hilarious, because I do think it is partially true.

The rest of the book is classic and I’m not going to go over it all, but he basically breaks down pop-culture into how it affects our life in this post modern era.

Killing Yourself to Live is the last book Klosterman wrote. It’s basically a journal, but not in journal form of him traveling around the U.S. visiting places where Rocker’s have died. You know, Elvis, The Skynard crash, you get the idea. While making this journey he’s explaining the cluster fuck, that are his relationships with women along with thinking about Death. I flew through that one last summer.

After, knocking those two down, I only had Fargo Rock City left to cover. I purchased the book probably in early fall and got going on it. In Fargo he writes about how 80’s metal affected his life and the whole social sphere. That’s what Chuck usually writes about. He grabs something that is pop-culture, breaks it down and shows how it affects us. The only problem is I hate 80’s metal.

Now, I don’t hate all of it, but I use to have a roommate who loved it and I work at a bar that use (Thank God they’ve stopped lately!!) to always blare it. I love Poison, Motley Crue and Guns n’ Roses. Seriously, they’re fucking awesome, but everyone would want to shoot themselves in the face if they had to listen to “Sweet Child O’ Mine” everyday. So I put the book down due to disinterest.

Time has gone by and I’ve picked up other books and life has been good, but lately I’ve been feeling the urge for some Chuck Klosterman. I need ridiculous ideas and theories on how being either a Lakers man or a Celtics man will help me make decisions in my life. I need to know why Zach Morris made a positive difference in my life and how I can psycho analyze “Saved by the Bell” and figure out what went wrong in highschool. So I picked Fargo Rock City back up.

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Yes, I still think Axl Rose is a social reject and I don’t want to read about him, but Klosterman takes it a step further. He’s letting me know why I needed Axl and why you need him too. I’m realizing how “grunge” was a good thing and how it allowed us all to be rock stars even though it killed the Glam!

I now have a new love for Chuck Klosterman’s words. The man can truly write about anything and make it fascinating. Now I’m not calling him a genius or the next Clancy, but for some reason his outlandish antics feel like home to me. They make me feel like I’m not alone in questioning everything and relating oddball topics back to real life.

I guess honestly, Chuck Klosterman makes me feel like my blog is worth reading. From talking about Master Chief to bitching about hypocritical Christians to posting booby trap links for all of my friends to see the strange and the bizarre on the internet, as I may not have a true theme, it is what it is though and it makes sense to me. I think that’s how Klosterman writes, you may not get it or even care to get it, but to those of who do, we love every minute of it.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

The Blog about nothing...

Ahh...Don't you just love that new Blog HTML smell?

I still have a few kinks to work out with my graphics design dept. over here at A Mind Awake inc., but I decided to go ahead and launch the shell. I was getting a litte sick of looking at Mario. Now if it was the princess...

Anyway, I hope you guys like it. It should be looking pretty radical by the end of the week.


All changes have been made. All Systems are GO! I even updated my links again. I apologize to a couple of you who I hadn't added yet. To be honest with you, it just slipped my mind. I think everything is in order and all of my Spring Cleaning is done on my site.

Thanks to my Boss and The Hud for the Graphics and HTML help.

"What would you do without Vision?"

A few weeks ago, I went in for a much needed eye exam. It wasn’t that my contacts were bothering my eyes. It was more of the fact that I hadn’t had an eye exam in 1.5 years and I had some how miraculously made 6 months of contact lenses last 3 times their life time.

I went to some crap place in the mall that was advertising an eye exam for $40. Not a bad deal, but I’ve worked in sales before and been in relationships with women, if it’s too good to be true, it usually is. The $40 eye exam was legit, but then they had this other deal where you can get two pairs of glasses for $100. Here’s the catch, both pairs of glasses have to be under $69 a piece. So if you get two pairs at that price it is a deal, but then you have to pay for lenses for both pairs and it can end up running you a lot of money. That’s where they get you. Bastards!

Anyway, I got the exam, some frames and some special lenses because I’m blind and I would have some coke bottles rockin’ if I didn’t get them. It cost me under $170. I didn’t feel too cheated, except I started getting head aches four days later and had to deal with these people again about getting my prescription changed and that actually cost me two more trips into the place. Bastards!

Through the whole ordeal I kept asking about contacts, but these people kept telling me that they would have to give me another exam as well. That exam would be another $60 or so dollars. That’s Bullshit though, because I’ve been doing this for ten years and I know better. They just tell you that to make more money. Now if I had never worn them before I can understand, but I’ve worn both contacts and glasses before so you don’t need to get the shape and curve of my eye. Bastards!

I decide to play stupid and go to a couple of Walmarts and see if they will let me buy contacts by flashing them my glasses prescription, but the people of Wally World are actually smarter than you think. They told me that it was a glasses prescription and it was against the law to sell Johnny C. contacts with only my glasses prescription. I mentioned that I had my old boxes of contacts and I knew the shape and curve of my eyeball. They didn’t cooperate. Bastards!

Well, before I went to Walmart I was playing around online and went to one of those websites where you can buy contacts. I thought I was being all sneaky putting all of my info in to order up some new lenses when at the end of the whole process they slap me with a “Give us your Dr’s name and number so we can make sure this prescription is OK” type of deal. It totally pissed me off, but I did it anyway. What the hell? I’ll just play stupid if anyone yells at me.

A couple of days later I’m sitting around thinking about how I’m going to have to end up paying more money for contacts that I shouldn’t have to pay when I decide to check my email. This is what I found:

Dear Johnny C.,

Thank you for your recent order with XYZ Contacts. This message is to let you know that your order has been marked as verified and will be processed today.

Under the Fairness to Contact Lens Consumers act, we are required to let you know that we did not hear back from your eye care practitioner's office when we tried to confirm your prescription. This means that by law we are allowed to process and ship your order. If we hear from your Eye Care Practitioner at a later time that there was an issue with your order, we will contact you. No action is required on your part.

At XYZ Contacts, we want to continue to be your number one choice for contact lenses. That's why we always have our Lowest Price Guarantee and fast, friendly service! Did you know that we also carry contact lens cases and solutions to help you care for your lenses?

If there is anything else we can do to be of assistance, please don't hesitate to contact us. Thanks again for choosing XYZ Contacts, where your vision is our vision!


Customer Care Team
XYZ Contacts

You have to be freaking kidding me? The Fairness to Contact Lens Consumers act! I love it! I actually found a loop hole in the Eye Care system. The people at the Dr’s Office were too lazy to make a phone call so I got around having to pay for another eye exam. The contact came in this week and I already paid and got a confirmation email for payment. It's over. I won!

In most cases, guys like me end up having to pay out of pocket and get screwed by the system, but not this time. I stood up for my rights. I swindled and played dumb and it worked in my favor. I hope my story will be an inspiration to blind men and women everywhere. You can fight the system and win! Victory and Vision can be ours!

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Sunday, March 05, 2006


I've finally had the opportunity to sit down and watch LOST. I've been meaning to get into it for sometime now. That time is now. I've marathoned through 15 episodes in the last day two days. I'm going to finish episode 16 up tonight and probably get the other two discs tomorrow from Blockbuster. Seems like a waste of life watching 16, 45 minutes episodes in two days. I have a great excuse though.

I've come down with strep throat for the second time. I got it the first time back in Dec. I have no idea why I got it though. I haven't smoked in over 7 weeks now so I don't know what would be causing the infection. Unfortunately, it's Sunday so I can't go to the Dr. for antibiotics until tomorrow.

I think all of the symptoms are going to be gone by tomorrow though. That's what happened last time. I went in for my appointment and everyone was telling me to feel better. I already felt fine. I just had white shit all over the back of my throat. The first two days of strep throat suck though. Here are the symptoms: fever, sore throat, and swollen lymph glands in the neck.

Well, I do feel the symptoms residing which is quite nice since I've felt like shit for the last two days. Hopefully, I'll be back to work on Tuesday.

Friday, March 03, 2006


My arms look mechanical. My face looks psychotic. My girl looks gorgeous.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Movie Moment - Swingers

Trent: You know what you are? You're like a big bear with claws and with fangs...
Sue: ...big fucking teeth, man.
Trent: Yeah... big fuckin' teeth on ya'. And she's just like this little bunny, who's just kinda cowering in the corner.
Sue: Shivering.
Trent: Yeah, man just kinda... you know, you got these claws and you're staring at these claws and your thinking to yourself, and with these claws you're thinking, "How am I supposed to kill this bunny, how am I supposed to kill this bunny?"
Sue: And you're poking at it, you're poking at it...
Trent: Yeah, you're not hurting it. You're just kinda gently batting the bunny around, you know what I mean? And the bunny's scared Mike, the bunny's scared of you, shivering.
Sue: And you got these fucking claws and these fangs...
Trent: And you got these fucking claws and these fangs, man! And you're looking at your claws and you're looking at your fangs. And you're thinking to yourself, you don't know what to do, man. "I don't know how to kill the bunny." With *this* you don't know how to kill the bunny, do you know what I mean?
Sue: You're like a big bear, man.
Mike: So you're not just like fucking with me?
Trent: No I'm not fucking with you.
Sue: Honestly, man.

I think just about every guy has been apart of a conversation like this with their buddies before. I hadn't watched this classic in a while. The lady and I busted it out this past weekend. If you haven't seen this movie before, you better get on it. Not only is it hysterical, but you get to see Vince Vaughn when he was skinny.

Can you believe the studio wanted to cast Jason Priestly as Trent? Vince Vaugh was made for this role. The writers were so adamant about Vince playing Trent that the script actually sat on the shelf for a year before the studio agreed to Vaughn playing the role. Good move.

Politics Shmolitics.

Since late September, I've stopped listening to the radio for the most part, mainly because I got an Ipod adapter for my car radio. Well, sometimes even the idea of have over 13,000 songs at your disposal can be a bit…predictable. So I’ve been tuning into one of the morning shows here in Atlanta every couple of days while driving to work. They can be pretty funny sometimes, but they will do the regular morning show gig and we know that’s just full of immaturity and ignorance a lot of the time, which makes me feel like I’m listening to two thirteen year olds argue over politics and other social issues.

I was listening this morning and they we’re all arguing over the Bush/Katrina deal that’s all over the news this morning. I understand that for them to be relevant and keep their listeners that these are matters that they need to discuss, but it’s just too fucking annoying for me to actually sit and listen to. The left-wing socialist Jew is screaming about Bush being a liar while the Harry Potter hating right-wing Christian is defending the president. On top of that we have a caller making a great point about the state of Louisiana squandering the money they were given to repair their levees way before Katrina ever happened.

Regardless of who is wrong or right (which I don’t even know myself), it’s just not something I want to listen to first thing in the morning when I’m driving my tired ass to work. So I plugged the ipod back up and rocked out!

Being quite happy with my decision, the rest of the commute was very stress free. As I got into work I did my daily ritual of checking my work e-mail and after taking care of those matters I went to This was probably a mistake since I was aggravated already about hearing about politics before lunch time. I saw the “it’s W’s fault that a hurricane destroyed New Orleans” story, but then another headline caught my eye:

“Dirty politics this ain't: Senator saves rival's life”

This seemed like an interesting story. After hearing all of the other political mumbo jumbo this morning this story put a smile on my face and restored my faith in humanity a little bit.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

I don't even know.

I attended a 401k meeting today. I was really excited about 401k a couple of weeks ago because I realized how I could screw the government out of $19(based on the amount I’m putting in) a paycheck because all of the money that goes into the account is tax-free. I think I knew that before, but never gave it much thought. I had a 401k account 4 or5 years ago at my first sales job. I saved $640 and cashed it out to do mission work.

As I grow older and do adult things, such as working a “real” job and spending my money the “right” way I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s all so surreal to me. Not in a dream sequence kind of way, but in a “Man, is this as good as it’s going to get?” kind of way. Now I know life will get better and to be honest with you it’s going quite well at the moment. Sometimes though when I’m sitting in a meeting discussing sales strategies that really have nothing to do with me or mailing a check for my electric bill or even walking through target to buy toilet paper, I start to ponder the idea that best decision I ever made was putting all of my belongings in storage, emptying my bank account and moving to another country.

Then again, when I was in another country sometimes the best idea seemed to getting my money back, flying home, getting all of my belongings out of storage and getting a “real” job.

I eventually did that when my time was up there. It’s good to stick it out with most situations in life. It pays off.

Everything is surreal though. Life is about decisions. Timing is everything .Every decision has a pro or a con. I’d like to think I’ve seen the best of both worlds.